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Jane KenyonDuring my long years working as an administrative assistant, I would sometimes be privy to the formal written evaluations given yearly to senior staffers who reported to the high-ranking executive for whom I worked. In one of these reviews, a VP was termed “very low key.” This was not a compliment. Though the woman did fine work, she simply did not conform to the high-spirited dynamism that was a feature of that corporation’s culture. I liked the woman immensely; what others found low key I found calming. There was a stillness about her, a zen. The poetry of Jane Kenyon (1947-1995) reminds me of that woman’s qualities. It is quiet, understated, spare; Chinese poetry was a potent early influence. Consider an early work, “Spring Evening”: Again the thrush affirms/both dusk and dawn. The frog/releases spawn in the warm/inlet of the pond. Ferns/rise with the crescent moon,/and the old farmer/waits to sow his corn. It reads like a terse Chinese or Japanese nature poem, with closely observed seasonal imagery. Jane Kenyon wrote a modest type of poetry, to be sure. Her diction was the opposite of dazzling—she used a plain vocabulary and eschewed formalist virtuosities. Sometimes her poems trail off, literally, with ellipses. Clearly, she was less interested in bringing off ringing closures than in setting down moods and moments. She was also a victim of severe depression and a depressive’s headachey lassitude infiltrates much of her work. That is both its weakness and its strength. Joy comes through as well, as it does when depression lifts and the smallest moments seem sacred. This selection of her poems may not be all that representative. I confess I prefer them over the highly spare works and those that trail off into weary inconclusiveness. Even so, I need her poems, even the less confident ones. They are a tonic to me; when I find my own work getting too baroque, I go to Jane’s more “low key” work for an antidote. Jane Kenyon was famously married to the poet Donald Hall, who outlives her though he was decades older. They shared a contemplative, poetry-infused life in rural New Hampshire. She died of leukemia at the age of 47. Man EatingThe man at the table across from mineis eating yogurt. His eyes, following the progress of the spoon, cross briefly each time it nears his face. Time, and the world with all its principalities, might come to an end as prophesied by the Apostle John, but what about this man, so completely present to the little carton with its cool, sweet food, which has caused no animal to suffer, and which he is eating with a pearl-white plastic spoon. Man WakingThe room was already light whenhe awoke, and his body curled like a grub suddenly exposed when something dislodges a stone. Work. He was more than an hour late. Let that pass, he thought. He pulled the covers over his head. The smell of his skin and hair offended him. Now he drew his legs up a little more, and sent his forehead down to meet his knees. His knees felt cool. A surprising amount of light came through the blanket. He could easily see his hand. Not dark enough, not the utter darkness he desired. In the Nursing HomeShe is like a horse grazinga hill pasture that someone makes smaller by coming every night to pull the fences in and in. She has stopped running wide loops, stopped even the tight circles. She drops her head to feed; grass is dust, and the creekbed’s dry. Master, come with your light halter. Come and bring her in. Dutch InteriorsChrist has been done to deathin the cold reaches of northern Europe a thousand thousand times. Suddenly bread and cheese appear on a plate beside a gleaming pewter beaker of beer. Now tell me that the Holy Ghost does not reside in the play of light on cutlery! A woman makes lace, with a moist-eyed spaniel lying at her small shapely feet. Even the maid with the chamber pot is here; the naughty, red-cheeked girl. . . . And the merchant’s wife, still in her yellow dressing gown at noon, dips her quill into India ink with an air of cautious pleasure. A Boy Goes into the WorldMy brother rode off on his bikeinto the summer afternoon, but Mother called me back from the end of the sandy drive: “It’s different for girls.” He’d be gone for hours, come back with things: a cocoon, gray-brown and papery around a stick; a puff ball, ripe, wrinkled, and exuding spores; owl pellets— bits of undigested bone and fur; and pieces of moss that might have made toupees for preposterous green men, but went instead into a wide-necked jar for a terrarium. He mounted his plunder on poster board, gluing and naming each piece. He has long since forgotten those days and things, but I at last can claim them as my own. From Having it Out with Melancholy5 Once There Was LightOnce, in my early thirties, I saw that I was a speck of light in the great river of light that undulates through time. I was floating with the whole human family. We were all colors—those who are living now, those who have died, those who are not yet born. For a few moments I floated, completely calm, and I no longer hated having to exist. Like a crow who smells hot blood you came flying to pull me out of the glowing stream. “I’ll hold you up, I never let my dear ones drown!” After that, I wept for days. 7 Pardon A piece of burned meat wears my clothes, speaks in my voice, dispatches obligations haltingly, or not at all. It is tired of trying to be stouthearted, tired beyond measure. We move on to the monoamine oxidase inhibitors. Day and night I feel as if I had drunk six cups of coffee, but the pain stops abruptly. With the wonder and bitterness of someone pardoned for a crime she did not commit I come back to marriage and friends, to pink-fringed hollyhocks; come back to my desk, books, and chair. Winter LambsAll night snow came upon uswith unwavering intent— small flakes not meandering but driving thickly down. We woke to see the yard, the car and road heaped unrecognizably. The neighbors’ ewes are lambing in this stormy weather. Three lambs born yesterday, three more expected …. Felix the ram looked proprietary in his separate pen while fatherhood accrued to him. The panting ewes regarded me with yellow-green, small- pupiled eyes. I have a friend who is pregnant— plans gone awry—and not altogether pleased. I don’t say she should be pleased. We are creation’s property, its particles, its clay as we fall into this life, agree or disagree. Notes from the Other SideI divested myself of despairand fear when I came here. Now there is no more catching one’s own eye in the mirror, there are no bad books, no plastic, no insurance premiums, and of course no illness. Contrition does not exist, nor gnashing of teeth. No one howls as the first clod of earth hits the casket. The poor we no longer have with us. Our calm hearts strike only the hour, and God, as promised, proves to be mercy clothed in light. ——Back to Lectio Contents—— |
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